Im gona be real busy for the coming days, weeks and months.....Let me see what i have

1. Csi talk week for the whole of this coming week and next week where ill be the emcee
2. I was appointed the Head of events for SAS chiron club and there will be lots of events that i will be in charge of for the coming months. Porposals....Proposals and more proposals for me..
3. SA fundraising event
4. Csi workshop on the first week of the sch hols
5. Clean and Green Week where some special ministers will be coming ( in september)
6. My driving license ( Bsic theory test on 12/8 and going for a lot of practicals lesson in September)
7. Chiron camp

I guess there will be more upcoming events that will really take up my time....I guess now im like in charge of events in SAS, i will be stepping back a bit for SA. Will not be joining so much event like i used to. I couldnt afford it even if i wanted to. After all i still need to juggle my studies also.

Wee!....Lalalalalalalalalalalallal

HAhahahaha....today is just my "high" day......No particular reason also...Since morning been jumping ard with the girls...just feeling so so happy....good mood=)
Well today the 4 of us wore the same PINK giordano t-shirts....and we end up being the centre of everyones attention..muahaha..i think its real cool and cute to be wearing the same thing...its not everyday and not everyone likes that..same brand....same colour t...same size some more....and for once we manage to have a class photo with scottz in the lab...haha...my class peeps just love pictures....one cool bunch of people....
And after sch went wif nesa to causeway point...told me she wanted to eat gelare and wanted me to come along..And we 'supposedly' met Rey(bro) otw to gelare..he was supposed to pretend to accidentaly met us....this two "sibs" of mine have actually plan this out for me...We've all been busy for the coming weeks and were unable to meet each other for very long and so they specially plan this for me...Had cookies and cream waffle ice-cream at gelare...yummy yum yum....before eating the ice-cream they even sang for me a belated birthday song and then gave me my birthday presents...it was just so sweet....Love u guys both..really enjoy my time with the two of them...cudnt stop laughing at bro's crappiness...and he said nesa hitam manis...him manis selalu..and me putih melepak...the blanga(nesa), malay(rey) and chinese sibs(me).......and yupz....happiness in not in the taste but in the things...

I just simply love all u people....U guys simply make my day...=)


Future doc/researcher....

The Girls in pink..simply love u guys.....

Model...hehe

Posers.... cool peeps

they are simply the best!!

As days go by, its making me realise more and more i made the right choice. I have my own set of principles that i follow and i will never change that for anyone so leave with that....Egoistic...hmm...perhaps...tats just who i am.....

Should i laugh it out loud...or get real angry.....

Well...i guess u guys will be surprised and pleased that i finally talk to someone after like more than 2 months....and he iniated the conversation aiite..not me...wana wait for me ...no never.....well he said thanks for smsing him tat time...i just do it out of compassion..i have it for everyone so nth big deal abt tat..but wells we were chatting almost one hour.....just asking him how he is and everything...well i realise that he haven change one bit...mayb more polite...same sacrastic ness.... but other than that...nope....and u noe wat...he thought i mite still have feelings for him..and he told me to be more positive abt things.......Like wth lah....for goodness sake....its all over alright....i told him theres sth that both of us must make things clear..i will never go back to the path i left and i know he would never too so we'll just leave it tat way....he agreed wif me which is good....And he din hate me frm the start so i guess i shud be relieved abt that...

I told him i used to hate him a lot but well im so over tat..ive moved on and will never go back to that path i once took....NEVER EVER WILL I DO DAT.......

YEY! i passed my evaluation last nite....haha....first step to getting my driving license...Will b taking the theory test on August later.
Hmm..must thank andrew for teaching me ytd. He actually took time to teach me b4 my test and accompany me to BBDC...after all he needs to top up and book his account too...

ANdrew....hmm.....my first sem classmates..one of the close friend i have too..but the funny thing is that we never fail to argue whenever we meet. There will always be sth that we dont see eye to eye with from last time till now.....we never fail to quarrel...but then no matter wat, he'll still come find me for anything.and i guess our friendship strengthen with all this quarrels we had. Ytd he keep asking me 'y u dont want to have chinese bf?'
Then i told him that i dont mind a chinese boyfren but i think i wana find a eurasian one....muahahahaha... i saw lots of eurasian muslim guys whose super good looking in Australia .Hmm....Something i take notice about people is their eyes and smile and this guys have super nice eyes. Gosh...haha...

Im like kinda addicted to blogging now....used to hate it coz i just like to keep my personal diary for myself but wells i wana let my best frends and close frens share with me my joy or sadness and every single thing that is happening ard me esp vid ( whose far off in indon)....

2 the guys out there: no matter how many times u guys ask, the ans will still be the same..

LOVE VS HATE

Can you actually hate the person u love? Well i find this topic real interesting. Let me first give u the defition of this two words from Encarta....

Love : very strong affection: an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion
passionate attraction and desire

Hate: to dislike somebody or something intensely

Well one actual fact that we can see from the definitions are that both requires intense feeling and sometimes well we just couldnt help feeling that way. I guess in a way sometimes we tend to hate the person we love perhaps because they really mean the world to us and every little actions done by them affects us so much that instead of love, we change it to hate to replace the lost feelings there....
I guess we just expect too much from our love ones that sometimes it changes to disappointment and then hate over time....And can we actually love the person we hate?
I was listening to the radio in the morning and came across sth interesting....
Well this happen in actual life...and these people were telling abt how the person they hate end up being the person they love...They used to hate their partners so much that they keep bickering and cant stand a minute near them but now they are actually happily married to these people they used to hate so much...Look at how fate (okay2 i noe im finally using this word) plays a part in bringing or breaking people apart...i guess thats just how life is....Love the person u hate or hate the person u love...Either way it shows how much that person means to u since it causes u to feel such intense feeling....

so peeps a word of advice....dun hate anyone or they will be the one ull end up with ...hahax

How psychotic, persistent and jiwang can a guy be....Gosh....I met one such guy today and seriously speaking...hes SuPer Duper not good looking...simply speaking hes ugly.....tats y he has to resort to stalking pretty girls and disturbing them here and there hoping that one day their luck might turn around and they will get that girl....Excuse me...pls take a good look at urself first and perhaps do a self reflection before going ard stalking people...and stop giving that pervertic look to her...

And what i really couldnt stand was how jiwang he was....gosh just reading those words he wrote gave me goosebumps and i tell u his level of jiwangness is so EXTREME that i bet nobody can ever stand.....i was laughing so so hard when i read the letter he wrote till there was tears in my eyes...really coulnt stand all those poetic words of his....and my girlfren..a real strong gal to meet him and try to settle everything with him..My galfren deserve a guy so much better than you so u better just get lost......and ..boy u better get the hint and dun linger ard her any longer...ure not needed....

i had fun taking neoprints....just love taking pictures.....hehehe






Future models.....love u guys lots...hehehe

**I wonder how coincidental can things get....

I LOVE MY CLASSMATES!! i really do....they are the coolest and craziest bunch i know..and i like them for just the way they are.....Last friday we went to causeway point with them to have my advanced birthday celebration. Boy, we were making so much noise while walking...crapping and getting all excited when azzahra's stalker called....
We had our dinner at the food court where azzahra treated me to nasi briyani and then its ARCADE time...wee...its been quite some time since i played at the arcade and i really enjoyed it so much..we race bike, car, played the shooting game and even basketball...
And for the last section, we too neoprints..haha...the 9 of us squeezing inside one booth and took pics together....All of us were so happy that we look nice in the pics...esp samuel...(see samuel must thank me coz i ask u take the neoprint)...
I like this bunch of classmates lots....They are a bunch of cheerful lot and never fail to make me smile every single day in class..During breaks... me, liyana, nurul and azzahra will have breakfast together and we never fail to gossip and talk about almost every single thing we can..hehehe .love u guys so much.....

Say cheese... Squeezee.....

Dun mess wif us.. Gay as in happy alright ppl

My burthday.....the coolest class ever..

me , liyana, azzah & nurul

posing.....hehe

Giving each other birthday kiss..My birthday on the 15, liyana on 16 and carolyn on the 17 july...how cool is that...

Happy Birthday 2 Me,
Happy Birthday 2 Me,
Happy Birthday Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday 2 Me

Finally im 18 "the legal age".....yey! I just feel so overwhelmed and touched by everything. I really am. No words can describe it.....This is like the best birthday ever.....There was so many sms...almost 30.... to wish me happy birthday..not including those who wish me via msn and even friendster testimonials....Even those whom i din expect to remember wish me....Everytime i receive and sms, i will read it and a smile will just form on my lips....Thank u all for the birthday wishes.Vidya and huda sang for me birthday song....and the best part was at 12am on my birthday my parents and siblings went to my rm gave me birthday cards and sang for me birthday song....How sweet can that be....not many families do dat...im just lucky to have such wonderful family and frens....Well my family bought for me an apple Mp4 and a nioce blouse, my dad gave me $1000 while my mum gave me $500....going to use it to learn driving....nana gave me an espri t-shirt and purse...liyana and nurul a princess display unit...and mira and sal a billabong necklace....thank u guys..i really love all ur gifts.

I woke up super early in the morning today and went to BBDC with my dad to enrol for my car license...woohoo..i just cant wait to start....After that i went to woodlands mrt as my mentee, chun long has sth to pass to me....do u noe that he actually baked me a cake...with chocolate icing some more...so sweet of him...it taste real nice...went out with family to bugis where we met up with mak juju and family....ate at victoria restaurant...well i cudnt eat much...was so happy abt certain things that i got full....my juju bought for me a lace kain ...well it looks real sweet..i like it...we then had to proceed to victoria theater to watch ika's performance..We walk all the way from bugis to victoria theater passing by brash basah mac donalds, raffles hotel, all of which hold so many memories for me..and it suddenly just brought me back to the past..Tat day huda ask me a qn and i was hesitant in answering it myself..i dinnoe how to really ans...but today after going through this places, i ask my heart the same qn huda ask me....and straight away it gave me an ans...i din really need to think twice also...the ans is obvious..its a no and will always be a no...im so sure of it now...anyway....Well i really enjoyed the concert..it was real entertaining...There was peroformances from the modern dance, ballet, indian dance, hip hop stuff and of course the band...it was real cool....anyway although i was sitting quite far off from the stage, i could immediately recognise ika from the rest of the indian dancers..she dance super cutelah..hahahaha.....took pictures with her and her thick make up....(ill upload the pics later)....the sad thing is that she had to go back to sch so we couldnt hang out much...but at least i enjoyed this day of mine...I just feel so happy and light hearted today...

Well ill have a fresh start in being 18....gona forget all those past memories that shudnt even be there in the first place...I noe what i want in life and im gona try hard to achieve it.....With best frens, good frens , my crazy and cool classmates, a wonderful family, my mentees,and of course my other frens, i think that my life is perfect enuf with all this ppl ard me...i dun need anything or anyone else....

1.48 am and im still not sleeping when theres suppose to be sch tmr....
Dunnoe wat was i thinking also.... i shudnt have known in the first place....

But i arent going to do anything..i will not think about it....Im just too stubborn i guess...My frens have been telling me that im just so stubborn...but i guess thats just who i am...i can be nice to u but dun u dare do anything to hurt me.....once i made up my mind,... its forever.....

Me and my bestie.....both in pink....

I love my bestie!!!

Last friday was the Coolest and Craziest Nite i ever experience.....seriously...i went hm feeling happy? disgusted? hahahah...i also dunnoe......but i enjoyed myself nonetheless....

Well after school Me, Amin, Abg hadi and my awesome peeps , Muneirah, Azree, Jaslyn, John and Kelvin heeded to Esplanade. Amin was talking all the way and saying out his lame jokes. Had a good laugh all the way to esplanade. We were so famished that we decided to have our early dinner at makan sutra first. But the food there was so pathetic. there was only one malay stall thats open for business and they only have mee soto, mee rebus, satay and gado gado. Pathetic rite....but too bad nth else to eat so i just settle for gado gado and it was kinda expensive i tell u...the ingredients was a bit only and it was ard $4...not worth it at all.....

After eating we proceeded to the top floor of the esplanade. The open air balcony where we took lots of pictures...haha....all of us are like cam whore....keep wanting to take pictures. but the best part of the whole day was when we play the frog counting game and the person who lost have to choose between truth or dare. I was the first one to lose and i choose to do a dare. Tat Amin ask me stand up and shout loudly "Im a Butch". gosh i had too and it was super embarrasing okay...but i guess i should consider myself lucky compared to the others.. Muneira had to do a sexy dance in front of a group of girls, Amin had to kiss on the cheek a girl who was sleeping nearby without waking her up and the best thing was wat azree had to do. he had to lick Amins feet with his tongue...Yucks disgusting rite...gosh..amins stupid idealah..the truth qns was even more worst...but i dun think i wana put here wat was being asked...hehe....it was kinda late by that time and me and the girls had to go off.....Amin and the guys went to suntec to continue their crapping....


Awesome Outing......


Louis Vuitton Models.....hehe


Reaching up for that ray of hope....


That Coolest and AWESOME team.....

YEY!
France Won and Portugal Lost! im so happy abt that... They deserve to win. They were real good and fast. Can u believe i woke up at 330 by myself just to watch it. And i had to watch it alone as my brother cudnt wake up.....Woke up ika at 4 plus and she panic coz she haven finish her homework yet...
Anyway Had SA meeting on Tuesday and i got myself 2 mentees, Ronald and Chun Long. Well both of them had somehow different personalities and ill be getting to know them better for the coming 3 months. They had a july Celebration for the july babies and of course i'm one of them. Chocolate cakes from Primadeli. Yummy Yum. Everyone commented that i look nice on that day with my attire....Hehe..Thanks ya.... And for once we took a Sa family picture together. Kinda Cool....


The July Babies bloring out the candles after making a wish.


This is only like the half of the SA family.


me and my close fren, Mira..

My morning routine now is to listen to Ria 89.7 Fm. There's always something interesting that u can learn from the people around u. And one interesting thing that i heard today was how certain people react when they get real angry. Some will just shout to the person who made them angry not caring if they are in a public place or not. The worst part is when they really cant control it and end up venting by slapping that person or throwing things at that particular person. By doing that arent this just making things worst and its not ethical at all to vent ur anger that way coz when ure angry anything can happen and u say words u dun mean sometimes which ull only regret afterwards.
Well for me i dun believe in that. Some people say when ure angry just say out whatever u feel to that particular person but wats the use when ull only makes things worst. For me when im real angry, ill keep quiet and i wun ever talk to that person. Even when that person call or talk to me, ill just dun listen and tries to cool down first. so people if u make me angry dun talk to me or say anything. Just leave me alone for a while to cool down for sometime and ill be fine after that. but some anger that u feel will never leave u no matter how long it have past. Well i guess different people have their own ways of reacting to a particular situation.

Been having lots of fun during the weekends with my family. On sat went to the open air food-court at esplanade to meet my cuzzins, abg an, cherry and ika and abg an treated us to lots of good food. We had satay, nasi goreng, mee goreng, roti john and my fav sugar cane juice. Yummy Yum..thanks for that. We then walk around esplanade and towards the bridge area. The merlion was under construction and i realise esplanade has become the hang out place for mats and minahs. Everywhere u turn, ull see all this mats and minahs. Dun they have anything better to do. Kecik met us at the bridge area as he was going to watch soccer with abg an later. Had so much fun with ika and all. We were kinda hyper on that day. keep crapping around and we even played hopscotch at the mrt area till the mats turn to look at us. Who cares. its okay to be crazy at times....and hehe..sorry ika so long never meet u so bully u a bit.

And that night watch the portugal vs England match. I was so sad that portugal won. And im starting to hate cristiano ronaldo now. such an irritating person....

on the way to esplanade...had nth to do and my sister and i decided to take pictures=)
Acting cute....hee


What ure looking at huh?


I wana kiss u....


This smiles is just for u =)

And after meeting my dear cuzzin our picture taking hobby continues.....


ika showing the food we're eating.Yum Yum


Nothing can separate us......


The two sisters i love...my bro's missing from the pics..sad...

And yesterday after my dad came back from work, we went to the park near crist church sec. we climbed up the hill and the view from up above was just breathtaking. I love it so much esp with the breeze blowing at my face. Let me show u a pic of the hill that we climb...

The view from up above is totally breathtaking..

We went to pasar malam with my neighbour and his cute son, Danish. I carried him most of the way. He's just so cute and i just feel like pinching his cheeks and kissing him. Danish and my sister went on the kiddy rides and they both enjoyed it so much..


my sister and the cute Danish on the swing.....

managed to talk to my fren for a while then after that talked to ika till ard 2am. She was kinda nervous about her auditions today. wish her all the luck..

I had so much fun during the weekends and im looking forward to more enjoyable weekends with my cuzzins and family.....

Been having weird dreams lately..Cant figure out wat it means...haiz...